ChaoticMusings

Date: May 1 9:46 PM, 2024

RE: Death

Date: May 1 10:54 PM, 2024

BTW Beccy, when Teen had got well she was a truly beautiful soul. So your silence after her first stroke speaks volumes. Entitled and middle class. For the record I saved her twice. I could not a third time. I am trying to find any evidence of the souls survival and there is none. I have asked Grandma, Grandad, Mam, Dad and Tina. Nothng. We live we die. Self replicating DNA genes fooling us I to meaning anything. It's repulsive.

Date: May 1 11:05 PM, 2024

Yeah. Your heartless and cold posts Just like my auntie. The bitch knew me from birth. 'Man up' my arse. Man up against a fuckng gun. That's the fucking toxic male crap.that has destroyed me s8nce I was 12. That was for Beccy.😢

Date: May 1 11:22 PM, 2024

It must be lovely not to be judged. Not in tremendous physical and mental pain and not alone. Whatever was said(and I am sure it has been hacked because of other stuff) I am s9 very sorry. Please forgive me. Please. Please.

Digger · Admin

Anonymous wrote:
I was very ill yesterday and today. Going to a medical drop in centre tomorrow as it will be far quicker than A&E. We should have met. I know that. Yet another fuck up. If I go I have no one to blame but myself. Oh and my fucking auntie told me to man up today - just like she did when I was in the Crossings when she could have helped. Her precious sons would have been evicerated within two hours of being stuck in there. Taz wgo lived 3 ft across the corridor had a gun ffs. But she seemed to think it was like a school playground. I have rang the Samaritans several times but find it incredibly humiliating. I am sure the fucking trolls will shit themselves laughing at that.

There's nothing humiliating about going to the Samaritans for help. I've done it myself.

So many have tried to help you. I remember you saying that your brother ordered you some milk thistle tablets to try to help you. You don't do that unless you care for someone. But everyone has a breaking point and it seems you repeatedly refuse to alter your attitudes and behaviour in order to get yourself well. Have you any idea how emotionally and mentally wearing that is? To have to watch helplessly while someone you care about destroys themselves? Or how that can stress someone out to the point where they have to step back for their own mental wellbeing? Not once in all the time we've known you have you ever expressed remorse for what grief and stress you might have caused others. Everything is all about you.

You can't expect people to have endless patience.

I've always been brutally honest with you. None of us think you are lying about your drink problem or your health. But we're not stupid and we know you are often not telling us the whole story. Some of us on here have enough life experience to read between the lines.

So, yes, you do have to man up. You have to take a long hard look at yourself, put your pride away, own your faults, own your addiction, own your behaviour, and open up to being helped. I don't believe for one minute you haven't had every opportunity for professional help and therapy. You'd rather wallow in perpetual self pity and blame the world and everyone in it for all that seems wrong in your life.

Digger · Admin

Anonymous wrote:
It must be lovely not to be judged. Not in tremendous physical and mental pain and not alone. Whatever was said(and I am sure it has been hacked because of other stuff) I am s9 very sorry. Please forgive me. Please. Please.

Nobody is judging you. We want you to get well.

Date: May 2 1:56 PM, 2024

Drop in app at 5.30 pm. So I will find out for good or bad. Phil.

Date: May 2 6:27 PM, 2024

Serious but not fatal. Whoopee do.

Date: May 3 8:01 AM, 2024

Anonymous wrote:
Serious but not fatal. Whoopee do.

what treatment did they recommend

Date: May 3 5:38 PM, 2024

I have to see a doctor to discuss things and treatment. I need to go to Woodley anyway to pick up my long overdue prescription. If that is you Fluffy I hope ypu are OK.

Date: May 4 11:26 AM, 2024

Anonymous wrote:
I have to see a doctor to discuss things and treatment. I need to go to Woodley anyway to pick up my long overdue prescription. If that is you Fluffy I hope ypu are OK.

No, and not sure who Fluffy is unless you're talking about the one who advertised her sleazy web porn stuff.

Date: May 4 7:06 PM, 2024

Sorry but the girl you are referring to was never but polite and respectful in private conversation So fuck off.

jackb · 1000 Posts!?

Anonymous wrote:
Sorry but the girl you are referring to was never but polite and respectful in private conversation So fuck off.

You seem to spend a lot of time telling people to fuck off.

Date: May 5 7:06 AM, 2024

Anonymous wrote:
Sorry but the girl you are referring to was never but polite and respectful in private conversation So fuck off.

Very rude in her public conversations though...

Syl · FIRM BUT FAIR.

Anonymous wrote:
Anonymous wrote:
Sorry but the girl you are referring to was never but polite and respectful in private conversation So fuck off.
Very rude in her public conversations though...

From my experience, she stopped when asked.

Vita · Know It All

I saw what you called me in that long rambling post.

Go fuck yourself Phil.

Digger · Admin

Phil, you won't be allowed back because all you do is whine about your lot in life, get morbid, blame others for what only you can control and get drunk and ramble in negative ways. We are done with trying to help you. You'd get more sympathy if you actually sorted yourself out. But you won't. You've been banned across several forums and for good reasons. None of us can be doing with a non stop stream of negativity if you were able to post freely here. You've had your chances. We've almost turned ourselves inside out trying to support you. Now, we're all done.

Date: May 17 4:41 AM, 2024

Anonymous wrote:
Oh and none of ypu fucking trolls would have lasted 5 minutes in that hostel with the drug dealers and savage ex cons. So fuck you.

No one had it as bad as you eh Phil, try being in that place with three children! But we cope we all cope because we know it will end because we try our best to pull ourselves out of the shit situation we found ourself in and unlike you through no fault of our own.
I'm a survivor and did it on my own, you on the other hand only got to where you are because people kept trying to help you because they see someone pathetic like a child who has never once taken responsibility for its own actions and has to blame everyone. Now the help has gone and you cant cope on your own, sadly this should have happened many years ago you were sheltered by your family when they should have kicked you out and maybe your life would be different now. Sometimes people need to be on their knees before they can get up and stand on their own two feet. Lets hope this is a turning point for you. You want to know who to blame for your life, go look in the mirror. We can only blame what happened to us as kids for the problems in our life for so long then we have to grow up and get over it.

Syl · FIRM BUT FAIR.

Anonymous wrote:
Anonymous wrote:
Oh and none of ypu fucking trolls would have lasted 5 minutes in that hostel with the drug dealers and savage ex cons. So fuck you.
No one had it as bad as you eh Phil, try being in that place with three children! But we cope we all cope because we know it will end because we try our best to pull ourselves out of the shit situation we found ourself in and unlike you through no fault of our own.
I'm a survivor and did it on my own, you on the other hand only got to where you are because people kept trying to help you because they see someone pathetic like a child who has never once taken responsibility for its own actions and has to blame everyone. Now the help has gone and you cant cope on your own, sadly this should have happened many years ago you were sheltered by your family when they should have kicked you out and maybe your life would be different now. Sometimes people need to be on their knees before they can get up and stand on their own two feet. Lets hope this is a turning point for you. You want to know who to blame for your life, go look in the mirror. We can only blame what happened to us as kids for the problems in our life for so long then we have to grow up and get over it.

I think if many people talked about their childhood years and what they have been through as an adult, there would be some very sad stories.

If all my bad times were written down, my life would sound pretty grim.

As it is, I remember my childhood as being happy, my mum was one in a million, and she made up for what was happening around us.

Most peoples adult lives have steep lows as well as good times, being happy for the good times makes the bad times easier to forgive, if not forget.

Date: May 17 12:43 PM, 2024

Syl wrote:
Anonymous wrote:
Anonymous wrote:
Oh and none of ypu fucking trolls would have lasted 5 minutes in that hostel with the drug dealers and savage ex cons. So fuck you.
No one had it as bad as you eh Phil, try being in that place with three children! But we cope we all cope because we know it will end because we try our best to pull ourselves out of the shit situation we found ourself in and unlike you through no fault of our own.
I'm a survivor and did it on my own, you on the other hand only got to where you are because people kept trying to help you because they see someone pathetic like a child who has never once taken responsibility for its own actions and has to blame everyone. Now the help has gone and you cant cope on your own, sadly this should have happened many years ago you were sheltered by your family when they should have kicked you out and maybe your life would be different now. Sometimes people need to be on their knees before they can get up and stand on their own two feet. Lets hope this is a turning point for you. You want to know who to blame for your life, go look in the mirror. We can only blame what happened to us as kids for the problems in our life for so long then we have to grow up and get over it.
I think if many people talked about their childhood years and what they have been through as an adult, there would be some very sad stories.
If all my bad times were written down, my life would sound pretty grim.
As it is, I remember my childhood as being happy, my mum was one in a million, and she made up for what was happening around us.
Most peoples adult lives have steep lows as well as good times, being happy for the good times makes the bad times easier to forgive, if not forget.

This is it Syl, people think because we laugh and are happy with our lot that we have never had any hard times.

ChaoticMusings

Machines were mice and men were lions once upon a time. But now that it's the opposite it's twice upon a time.