ChaoticMusings

Date: May 17 6:56 PM, 2024

RE: Death

TurquoiseCat · Bit Shy

Anonymous wrote:
BTW Beccy, when Teen had got well she was a truly beautiful soul. So your silence after her first stroke speaks volumes. Entitled and middle class. For the record I saved her twice. I could not a third time.

My silence meant I could not give any more time to someone who phoned me at all hours with drunken rambles and who never listened to a single bit of advice I gave over an entire decade.

It's always been about you, everyone trying to help you. Giving so much emotional labour for you, for absolutely nothing in return, not even acknowledgement.

I had a baby, a full time job, my own health problems, my own extended family to look after. It does not speak volumes that I could no longer listen to you. It speaks volumes that you cannot comprehend that anyone but you might matter to someone.

Syl · FIRM BUT FAIR.

Anonymous wrote:
Syl wrote:
Anonymous wrote:
Anonymous wrote:
Oh and none of ypu fucking trolls would have lasted 5 minutes in that hostel with the drug dealers and savage ex cons. So fuck you.
No one had it as bad as you eh Phil, try being in that place with three children! But we cope we all cope because we know it will end because we try our best to pull ourselves out of the shit situation we found ourself in and unlike you through no fault of our own.
I'm a survivor and did it on my own, you on the other hand only got to where you are because people kept trying to help you because they see someone pathetic like a child who has never once taken responsibility for its own actions and has to blame everyone. Now the help has gone and you cant cope on your own, sadly this should have happened many years ago you were sheltered by your family when they should have kicked you out and maybe your life would be different now. Sometimes people need to be on their knees before they can get up and stand on their own two feet. Lets hope this is a turning point for you. You want to know who to blame for your life, go look in the mirror. We can only blame what happened to us as kids for the problems in our life for so long then we have to grow up and get over it.
I think if many people talked about their childhood years and what they have been through as an adult, there would be some very sad stories.
If all my bad times were written down, my life would sound pretty grim.
As it is, I remember my childhood as being happy, my mum was one in a million, and she made up for what was happening around us.
Most peoples adult lives have steep lows as well as good times, being happy for the good times makes the bad times easier to forgive, if not forget.

Yeah well good for you Syl. A lot of us weren’t so lucky, bit insensitive tbh

It isn't a matter of being good for me, it's my opinion on how I and millions of others cope with life...luck doesn't come into it.

jackb · 1000 Posts!?

Anonymous wrote:
Syl wrote:
Anonymous wrote:
Anonymous wrote:
Oh and none of ypu fucking trolls would have lasted 5 minutes in that hostel with the drug dealers and savage ex cons. So fuck you.
No one had it as bad as you eh Phil, try being in that place with three children! But we cope we all cope because we know it will end because we try our best to pull ourselves out of the shit situation we found ourself in and unlike you through no fault of our own.
I'm a survivor and did it on my own, you on the other hand only got to where you are because people kept trying to help you because they see someone pathetic like a child who has never once taken responsibility for its own actions and has to blame everyone. Now the help has gone and you cant cope on your own, sadly this should have happened many years ago you were sheltered by your family when they should have kicked you out and maybe your life would be different now. Sometimes people need to be on their knees before they can get up and stand on their own two feet. Lets hope this is a turning point for you. You want to know who to blame for your life, go look in the mirror. We can only blame what happened to us as kids for the problems in our life for so long then we have to grow up and get over it.
I think if many people talked about their childhood years and what they have been through as an adult, there would be some very sad stories.
If all my bad times were written down, my life would sound pretty grim.
As it is, I remember my childhood as being happy, my mum was one in a million, and she made up for what was happening around us.
Most peoples adult lives have steep lows as well as good times, being happy for the good times makes the bad times easier to forgive, if not forget.

Yeah well good for you Syl. A lot of us weren’t so lucky, bit insensitive tbh

Stop being so ridiculous!

Digger · Admin

Anonymous wrote:
Anonymous wrote:
Oh and none of ypu fucking trolls would have lasted 5 minutes in that hostel with the drug dealers and savage ex cons. So fuck you.
No one had it as bad as you eh Phil, try being in that place with three children! But we cope we all cope because we know it will end because we try our best to pull ourselves out of the shit situation we found ourself in and unlike you through no fault of our own.
I'm a survivor and did it on my own, you on the other hand only got to where you are because people kept trying to help you because they see someone pathetic like a child who has never once taken responsibility for its own actions and has to blame everyone. Now the help has gone and you cant cope on your own, sadly this should have happened many years ago you were sheltered by your family when they should have kicked you out and maybe your life would be different now. Sometimes people need to be on their knees before they can get up and stand on their own two feet. Lets hope this is a turning point for you. You want to know who to blame for your life, go look in the mirror. We can only blame what happened to us as kids for the problems in our life for so long then we have to grow up and get over it.

Oh, we said all this and shared stories with him about our own lives and challenges in the hope it might help and galvanize him.

Syl · FIRM BUT FAIR.

Anonymous wrote:
Syl wrote:
Anonymous wrote:
Anonymous wrote:
Oh and none of ypu fucking trolls would have lasted 5 minutes in that hostel with the drug dealers and savage ex cons. So fuck you.
No one had it as bad as you eh Phil, try being in that place with three children! But we cope we all cope because we know it will end because we try our best to pull ourselves out of the shit situation we found ourself in and unlike you through no fault of our own.
I'm a survivor and did it on my own, you on the other hand only got to where you are because people kept trying to help you because they see someone pathetic like a child who has never once taken responsibility for its own actions and has to blame everyone. Now the help has gone and you cant cope on your own, sadly this should have happened many years ago you were sheltered by your family when they should have kicked you out and maybe your life would be different now. Sometimes people need to be on their knees before they can get up and stand on their own two feet. Lets hope this is a turning point for you. You want to know who to blame for your life, go look in the mirror. We can only blame what happened to us as kids for the problems in our life for so long then we have to grow up and get over it.
I think if many people talked about their childhood years and what they have been through as an adult, there would be some very sad stories.
If all my bad times were written down, my life would sound pretty grim.
As it is, I remember my childhood as being happy, my mum was one in a million, and she made up for what was happening around us.
Most peoples adult lives have steep lows as well as good times, being happy for the good times makes the bad times easier to forgive, if not forget.

This is it Syl, people think because we laugh and are happy with our lot that we have never had any hard times.

Exactly, no one goes through life unscathed.

It's often not what has happened to us that changes our lives for good or bad, it's how we deal with it all.

Date: May 20 6:50 PM, 2024

What happened Keys?… you weren’t like this on Dogs IIRC?…. get your act together man, life’s too short to waste it!… sort it out, if you can’t, no one else can!… I wish you well!

jackb · 1000 Posts!?

Poca wrote:
What happened Keys?… you weren’t like this on Dogs IIRC?…. get your act together man, life’s too short to waste it!… sort it out, if you can’t, no one else can!… I wish you well!

Wasn't keys some kind of Rising Damp Rigsby sort of landlord when on dogs or was he the train spotter guy?

-- Edited by jackb on Tuesday 21st of May 2024 12:01:27 PM

Date: May 21 1:36 PM, 2024

jackb wrote:
Poca wrote:
What happened Keys?… you weren’t like this on Dogs IIRC?…. get your act together man, life’s too short to waste it!… sort it out, if you can’t, no one else can!… I wish you well!
Wasn't keys some kind of Rising Damp Rigsby sort of landlord when on dogs or was he the train spotter guy?

-- Edited by jackb on Tuesday 21st of May 2024 12:01:27 PM

Dunno, but he seems like a different character now!… didn‘t he start a decent Science thread on Dogs, kind of ‘normal’, interesting sorta guy?…. sounds more like a ‘Micky’ wannabe now, whinging and attention seeking!

Date: May 21 11:59 PM, 2024

No I just went through a pilec of shit over the last three years. Operation on a shattered hip tomorrow. I am.still the same bloke despite a lot of people turning on me. Phil

Digger · Admin

Anonymous wrote:
No I just went through a pilec of shit over the last three years. Operation on a shattered hip tomorrow. I am.still the same bloke despite a lot of people turning on me. Phil

I'm surprised the NHS are allowing you to be operated on. What with you being desperately malnourished, bleeding in the stomach, chronic alcoholism, damaged liver, etc.

jackb · 1000 Posts!?

Digger wrote:
Anonymous wrote:
No I just went through a pilec of shit over the last three years. Operation on a shattered hip tomorrow. I am.still the same bloke despite a lot of people turning on me. Phil
I'm surprised the NHS are allowing you to be operated on. What with you being desperately malnourished, bleeding in the stomach, chronic alcoholism, damaged liver, etc.

Not a chance!

Maddog · Go Outside

Anonymous wrote:
No I just went through a pilec of shit over the last three years. Operation on a shattered hip tomorrow. I am.still the same bloke despite a lot of people turning on me. Phil

What did you go though? You lost your parents. That's sad, but something everyone on here goes through. Its a part of life.

Assuming you're actually being operated on, good luck.

If you truly have a shattered hip, and dont rehab it like you're supposed to, you will spend the rest of your life in a wheelchair.

I suggest you start doing what the professionals tell you to do and start holding yourself accountable..

Date: May 22 4:44 AM, 2024

Ypu can all believe what you like, the NHS doesn't judge. Ring up.the Royal Berkshire in.Reading and ask if I am.in the osteolgy ward. Or the More hotel on Christchurch road where Tiafsna and Katy have stored my stuff until I get out. Or Michelle at Cranston my booze counsellor in Wokinham. I have never had an operation before. Not going under. No way . if I have the choice depending on what operation the Consultant decides it's a spinal.anethetic injection so I can stay awake.

Date: May 22 4:52 AM, 2024

Oh and Jack You always disliked me from the start for no reason. and pissed off in a hissy fit when ypu were not allowed to tag team on here. Whatever you belive I could not give a flying fuck. I am.sober BTW- they don't allow booze in hospital.

Vita · Know It All

jackb wrote:
Poca wrote:
What happened Keys?… you weren’t like this on Dogs IIRC?…. get your act together man, life’s too short to waste it!… sort it out, if you can’t, no one else can!… I wish you well!
Wasn't keys some kind of Rising Damp Rigsby sort of landlord when on dogs or was he the train spotter guy?

-- Edited by jackb on Tuesday 21st of May 2024 12:01:27 PM

That was JRA, he had a boarding house or something similar.

I got on okay with him, except when we discussed dogs.

The furry kind, he didn't like them and I do.

TurquoiseCat · Bit Shy

Anonymous wrote:
Oh and an hour ago.I discovered the artery in my right lower abdomen is vastly swollen Exactly what killed dad. I am.terrified. I now know what is causing the pain. I requested a fibro.test tomorrow and it was confirmed before my phone was stolen. I hope they send me to hospital. If it burts I am dead.

3 weeks ago you discovered you had a vastly swollen aneurysm which could kill you and they're now doing an operation on your hip? This seems odd.

Phil we didn't turn against you, you turned against us all first when you didn't treat us properly as friends and refused to take advice, never telling us the full story, and then multiple times now you've turned nasty towards different individuals.

And you can save the abuse I'm sure you're now going to post.

Date: May 22 10:06 AM, 2024

No.I went to a drop in soon after. I forgot to post he said it was nothing too bad to worry about. Not an ayrey just a shifting vein Not had the operation yet but had some good news in that its nowhere near as serious as they first thought. Plus incredibly my bloods, BP, CT and liver were far, far bet than I expected. The top bloke knows his stuff obviously. The surgeon says I can have it repaired rather than replaced and have an injection of spinal anaesthetic rather than be put under. I may be here for a while with physio but the staff are great and its far better than paying a fortune for that hotel. When I stop boozing things always look up. I lnow everyone has said before but even rhe hotel girls say my personality is so different when I am not drunk. With a bit of luck I will be able to get a flat in the North soon. I might still have over 25 years yet. 🙂

Digger · Admin

Anonymous wrote:
Ypu can all believe what you like, the NHS doesn't judge. Ring up.the Royal Berkshire in.Reading and ask if I am.in the osteolgy ward. Or the More hotel on Christchurch road where Tiafsna and Katy have stored my stuff until I get out. Or Michelle at Cranston my booze counsellor in Wokinham. I have never had an operation before. Not going under. No way . if I have the choice depending on what operation the Consultant decides it's a spinal.anethetic injection so I can stay awake.

For the better part of a year you've been telling us how desperately ill you were, that you were a 'skull on a stick'. You recently told us you looked like a skeleton and yet you posted a photo as your avatar that showed you looking pretty healthy, a normal weight and a head that looked far from skull like. You've been saying how alone you were, you had nobody, you were in debt, at the end of your savings, nowhere to go, and suddenly you have friends storing the stuff you said you'd lost - didn't all your belongings end up in a skip?

I really sincerely hope you get your shit together. Nobody cared more about you than certain people on this forum, and now it seems, others too from different forums. But a lot of what you've told us doesn't add up. So that's why we've lost sympathy for you. Good luck with your op.

Date: May 22 11:09 AM, 2024

When did I post my avatar on here recently, Digger? I did and have lost a shit load of weight. If ypu are talking g about the past one with the leather jacket that was 2017. I do not have a prescription for (amongst others) As for the hotel girls being friends, no they are nice and friendly because I am the same to them. I do get tired as being portrayed as this fictional monster by certain people (not ypu) especially as so many have been far more unpleasant on forums in the past. Anyway I should have my operation today with luck. The surgeon did say the morning gone could be very long or short and I may I am.no 4 on the list, lady who.is no 2 is just going so it looks good.

-- Edited by Digger on Wednesday 22nd of May 2024 11:36:05 AM

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Machines were mice and men were lions once upon a time. But now that it's the opposite it's twice upon a time.

Machines were mice and men were lions once upon a time. But now that it's the opposite it's twice upon a time.

Machines were mice and men were lions once upon a time. But now that it's the opposite it's twice upon a time.